Patient yet scared

I am firmly on board with the "it's the first week let's remain calm" crowd. But I'd not be telling the truth if I didn't admit 2 ABs tonight set off PTSD like alarms that I had to walk away from. 1. Roman leads off taking 3 piped heaters to strikeout.... no swings. 2. Cedanne goes up takes a piped heater no swing challenges a painted heater and loses..... takes a piped heater to strikeout. (Sorry if a detail is a little off. Couldn't easily confirm) What are we doing!