craving affection so bad..

i am the loneliest ive ever been in my life right now and all i crave is companionship, love affection and physical touch. like no one understands but this feeling is actually unbearable. normally its never this intense but i just want to lay in bed and cuddle but not with my current face. like a better looking version of me. this sucks so bad. im so depressed i hate my life. i have no meaningful relationships either and no pets. i hate being ugly so much