My gym crush returned

I've been mentally committed to my gym crush for the past 6 months until he disappeared many weeks ago. now I saw him 2 days in a row at the gym but I still couldn't even make eye contact with him. I just kept smiling/giggling to myself like an idiot intermittently. had to pretend I was just smiling at something funny on my phone and try to keep my distance so I don't become a stalker.

Sadly, he was ?with a girl yesterday, not sure if that's his girlfriend cuz I've seen them chatting for a few times now (makes sense cuz theres no way he is single). He is the perfect image of "tall dark and handsome", he has no tattoo, full dark curly hair with a full beard, I never used to like beard but he's so different. and he might be an electrician, he wore a shirt that says "●●●●● electricals" yesterday. now he's certified tall, dark, handsome and competent. I hope he keeps coming to the gym daily and lives a long healthy happy life.

I'm finding it so hard to move on even after seeing him with someone else. 🥺 do people shoot their shot on someone wayyyy out of their league? im just a normal short Asian girl with a fringe that's overdue for a trim, pale, puffy looking like im bulking but im just bloated. Do men get weirded out when approached by someone unattractive? im not ready to change gym cuz this place is super close to work..hmm 😫 im obsessed