Does anyone 100% belive in Jesus

bro I am literally Christian cuz idk what else to believe, I mean I believe in God and I do think there is a devil.But so many Christians cant even answer my questions, I kinda wish I was a man yk I feel like it would be easier to belive in God or maybe not black. like where was God when innocent black kids were being r*ed (slavery), why should I even pray anymore if he doesn't even answer, how is Jesus sacrifice so bad many ppl died worse idk I want to believe in Jesus cuz I always have since childhood I feel like I will be depressed in life if I dont have a religion cuz life its self is confusing also why is every flipping religion abt being submissive to men i cant 😭