I had a BAD fight with my mother today.

Putting a trigger warning here just in case. There was some physical contact, but nothing sexual.

My mother is nuts! She showed up to my apartment and told me to put on another shirt because my shirt was blue.

It wasn't NAVY blue. It was blue. So, this crazy person then asked me, "WHAT DID YOU ORDER AGAIN?", because she saw that I ordered food. She went on with all the things that she's been buying for me.

She took my phone because I said that I'd call the police. She whines about "my obsession" that I'm "always in front of the computer."

She yelled, "GO TELL YOUR FRIEND!" She calls me crazy. She's not well. Then, after all that, she begged me harassing me with phone calls to get into her car. She has to learn to take no for an answer!

Especially when she comes in where I live, tells me not to change my shirt to a different color, AND asks me, "WHAT DID YOU ORDER AGAIN?" I wanted to see my niece and my nephew!

So, I got into her car...and guess what? It was more bullying and harassment! She doesn't stop! I got out of the car quite a few times... The last time, I was screaming at the corner on the main street saying, "I'm not safe with you!", and "You fucking idiot!"

She keeps calling me crazy. She says that my best friend was an idiot to take me to a restaurant the day of my father's funeral. She can SHUT UP.

Of course, my mother said, "You think you're so independent!"

So, I'm now keeping quiet at her apartment for this stupid Passover dinner all because I just wanted to spend time with my niece and my nephew....

It hurts where my mother grabbed my arm because she told me that I was "playing a game" by saying that I'd call the police...and that I always turn myself into the victim. My mother kept begging me to get back into her car each time I got out... I didn't CARE that "people were looking." I wasn't safe!

I'm so sad... Of course, I hyperfixate on categorizing things within my life because how else am I going to cope with what the hell I'm going through? How many potential personal relationships have been ruined because this crazy person just never stops?