coping

when it comes to coping, i’m in the pursuit of finding what brings me back to myself.

i think about how suffocating it used to feel being all alone with my thoughts, not knowing what to do and how to navigate through frustration, disappointment, anger and grief.

it felt heavy. so heavy.. my chest physically ached i thought i was going to die haha

i don’t think i was ever taught how to cope

i just… figured it out slowly, piece by piece

and somehow, i’m still here.