I feel wronged

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since my childhood i have heard study and you will get a good job then you will get a good life pretty and loving wife and happy days.

in that hope i spent my life studying i never went around like other guys doing alcohol hitting on girls.

i stayed and focused i completed my bachelors then masters hoping to finally land a nice enough job.

i tried in IT but no luck .

my luck is so bad my entire class applied to a company and most of them got interview mail. i didnt so i went home for christmas and then at that day at the very last day i got mail saying to appear tomorrow.

i mailed them can they reschedule i never got a reply.

so its been an year now since i completed my masters.

i tried IT , i tried to get lectureship , i tried everything.

no matter what i do i dont seem to get a job now.

i am almost 26 now and i am feeling so miserable. i already feel old like i have lost.

even if i somehow get a job in an year it will be like gery entry level so bad pay i would need to wait another 2 or 3 years for decentish raise.

at that point i feel i will be too old to marry.

i feel like its gods pkaying with me they think i dont deserve love of a woman in my life. or love of any kind my family seems to subtly turn on me they dont say but i feel that they are disappointed that i am in there house eating there bread.

i dobt want that too. i also had dreams. i also thought i will do things for my parents. i dont know what to do.