Need help please

I don't have any acc so i made this acc today just to ask for help

Please help me

I'm in a very weird and confusing condition rn

In 2025 when i gave my boards my family situation was bad and slowly it became worse

I gave boards anyhow

After that i was very excited for my 11th

I started doing classes regularly everything was going good

But i realised that i'm not able to understand anything and backlogs started to pile up

I thought i'll use the next version and complete the backlogs and continue with it

I was not able to do so

Online classes are treated as joke at my house

Financial conditions are not good

And there are many more issues which i can't even share with anyone

Now my 11th is completely wasted (absolute zero)

I have the lakshya batch (bought both lakshya and arjuna together)

And rn i'm confused if i should continue with lakshya

Or get yakeen

I don't even have money for yakeen

I'm not okay mentally

I'm exhausted but i don't have any option rather than just study and get a good college

I just want to get out of this house as soon as possible

What should I do?

Someone please help me