Having doubts about husband

Hi everyone,

For context, Been married for 4 months, it was love marriage. Right now in a long distance relationship. Past few weeks have been the hardest. I had a huge fight with my husband where he was extremely upset and yelled at me for absolutely nothing. Can’t go in details but that fight just broke me in ways that I am unable to bring back myself in the same position.

Recently, I have noticed that my husband is on the call most of the time but since I am unable to communicate with him like I used to, I can’t just ask him because mentally I am still upset and do not have the courage to ask such questions. I feel like, he is talking to some girls. I keep imagining stuff. And yesterday I saw a nightmare, where he was holding hands with some girl.

I wanna ask what should I do to restore our relationship. He has been trying to talk to me but I am just unable to revive myself. I don’t feeling any spark. I am drawn towards him but I control myself a-lot. I just want him to feel ashamed for yelling at me. He has never talked to me like that, he is a nice man and has been kind to me throughout all our relationship. Also he is going through some work related problems. We have had our arguments but he was always respectful towards me but this time he broke all boundaries and I am extremely hurt. I cried everyday til now.

I wanna talk to him nicely but the flashbacks won’t let me.