21 weeks, anatomy scan tomorrow, and this post is where I'm going to store all of my anxiety

Hiya fellas.

We hit the 21 week mark a couple of days ago. Our boy has been wiggling up a storm for 4 weeks now, the kicks are very strong. He karate chopped the crap outta my hand last week. We're able to easily find the heartbeat on our home doppler. The OB's office is very pleased with how he's been progressing.

Tomorrow's the anatomy scan and I've been doing too much Googling. My partner is a huge medical nerd, being the sick kid/professional patient she's always been, so she's geeking out over what to look for and what to be worried about - able to look at each scenario objectively. Me, I'm a worrier, so I'm kindof wishing I would've listened to her when she told me not to read anything and to focus on happier posts in this subreddit. Tomorrow's a big moment in the journey, I don't want to walk into it with a blindfold on, unprepared for what a peek inside might reveal.

I haven't been handling this as gracefully as I could, I guess. The stress is coming out as a quick temper at some poor AT&T customer service rep or getting weepy in the middle of my workday. I'm watching Children of Men right now, I have no idea why. Might not be the best movie for where my head's at right now. Maybe my brain needs a "At least a baby born in a filthy room in a ghetto was born healthy" story right now. I know I gotta breathe and keep optimistic and focus on supporting my partner, and I'll get there. Just needed to take a collective breath with y'all who might be in the same spot right now.