Please help !!

So my 2 year partner and I broke up just over 2 weeks ago (18m ) I'm feeling very lost as after we broke up there's reasons that mean we will never get back together (in her eyes anyway ), I'm feeling very lost as I do have a few friends but have always been an akward person and having the safety net of always having someone there was really important to me, I just hope I find that again but finding it hard to believe it rn as during the relationship no girl ever approached me so why would they now ? Any help will be appreciated !