I came home from a horrible date and my daddy ended up fucking me 18F

ok so its just me n my dad at home n ive been having all these feelings for him lately but never thought anything would actually happen. im 18 now n really small n curvy n ive noticed him looking at my body more n more. last night i went on my first real date with this guy from school n it was awful. he was pushy n kept trying to touch me even when i said no n i ended up calling an uber n coming home early crying.

when i got home my dad was still up watching tv. he saw my makeup all messed up from crying n asked what happened. i broke down telling him everything n he pulled me into a big hug on the couch. i was wearing a short dress from the date n he was rubbing my back trying to calm me down. i felt so safe in his arms n i just whispered "why cant guys be more like u daddy"
then things got weird. i looked up at him n we stared at each other for a second n suddenly we were kissing. it started soft but got really deep fast n i climbed into his lap straddling him. i could feel him getting hard under me. i was so turned on n sad at the same time. i told him i wanted him to be my first instead of some stupid boy. he tried to say we shouldn't but i kept kissing him n grinding on him till he gave in.

he carried me to his bedroom n laid me on his bed. he took my dress off n ate me out for so long till i came twice on his tongue. then he fucked me missionary slow at first then harder. i was moaning so loud n digging my nails into his back. he flipped me over n took me doggy style pulling my hair. he came inside me the first time n then we did it again with me riding him. i came so many times i lost count.

this morning he was quiet but made me breakfast n asked if i was ok. i said yes but now im sitting here with his cum still dripping out of me feeling sore n guilty as fuck. i know its wrong but it was the best night of my life n i want him to do it again. guys i let my own dad fuck me after a bad date instead of some boy... i feel like such a slut but also so happy. what do i do now?? 😣