43 M trying to get over the post nut sinners guilt

I know we lived in an enlightened age where it's okay to do these things It's okay to be open but that religious repression that's been hammered into me It makes me struggle. Anytime I'm talking with a man and he makes me cum I feel like the worst sinner like I should never do it again. I should repent for my evils. But I still crave a man to show me pretty things and stroke for him. seen that hot stuff he floods my box with to make me hard and then tells me that I should jerk to it for him.

to goon to edge He likes to make me enjoy myself enjoy my time with him He wants me to understand that it's okay that I like this That's okay to be a little bit gay It's okay I have a man encouraged me to touch my dick to sending pictures of the full condom after.

How do I get over that regret How do I get over feeling like The worst sinner. How do I learn to love the fact that men who send me porn and make me come get me the best orgasms?