life sucks

i just wanted to ramble to someone rather than my fiancé, so what better than to tell the internet:) anyways, this has been a rough couple of months for me. My long-distance boyfriend(now fiancé) of 4 years had proposed to me last december and my family has been so negative over it. I’ve had my cousin saying that, i’m dumb and that I should’ve dated around more, instead of settling with the first guy. (i’ve had many situationships, it was not my thing, yet she doesn’t care). My grandma is constantly upset that he did not ask her or that I didn’t ask her advice about marriage. What they all fail to realize is that he did exactly what I asked him to do for OUR relationship. I wanted him to met and ask my dad personally, I wanted us to have been dating for more than 3 years and for him to be living alone. He did all that and that’s why I accepted his proposal. I hate that they both think they can control my relationship. It’s why I decided not to have a wedding and just have something small with him and I only. My car also had a missing bumper so I was down $1,200 to get that fixed :/ and my great family didn’t even help. it was my dad and fiancé that did. Now I’m facing homelessness as my aunt is selling her house. I have to find a better job to support myself, my car and I just don’t think I can go to school now which honestly is a bigger bummer because of all the financial things I’ll have. Another bummer is my fiancé and i can’t even apply for a K1 yet due to his taxes, which is another 1-2 years of ld. I have to figure out what i’ll do for me and it’s so stressful. I just want to cry constantly, i feel so drained and it just feels like there’s always so soul sucking even happening to me this year and we are only four months in T-T

im sorry for the long ramble, just felt nice to get some things off my chest