Need advice huhu

Hi… I just really need to let this out.

I’m currently in a relationship where I feel like I’ve reached a point na mas pinipili ko na lang manahimik kaysa makipag-argue. Not because okay ako, but because I’m already tired.

Kapag hindi kami okay, nag-iiba siya. The way he talks to me sometimes feels hurtful, parang maliit ang tingin niya sa akin. Dati, sumasagot pa ako. I would stand up for myself. Pero ngayon… hindi na. Nakakapagod pala kapag pakiramdam mo siya lagi ang tama.

What hurts more is that I feel like my efforts no longer have value to him. We’re working in the same company, and honestly… ako yung gumagawa ng halos lahat, even tasks that are supposed to be his. Kasi gusto ko lang din tumulong, kasi siya ang dahilan kung bakit ako nakapagtrabaho dito, and he has never heard any complaints from me. Ako yung pagod, pero parang siya yung komportable.

I feel drained, unappreciated, and small. I don’t know if this is still healthy or if I’m just holding on out of habit.

Has anyone been in this kind of situation? How did you deal with it?