My own wedding was a disaster - need help

I honestly don’t even know where to start with this, but I need to get it off my chest.

Our wedding was supposed to be one of the happiest days of our lives, and instead it just… fell apart. We had guests who RSVP’d and then didn’t turn up, which left the whole day feeling empty and awkward. I kept trying to stay positive, but every time I looked around, it was a reminder of who wasn’t there.

On top of that, we’ve just received our photos back and I’m absolutely heartbroken. They’re nothing like what we hoped for. The angles are unflattering, important moments were missed, and instead of feeling joy looking through them, I just feel upset and disappointed all over again. It’s like the one thing we had to hold onto from the day doesn’t even reflect how it should have felt.

I’ve cried more over this than I expected to. I know people say “it’s just one day,” but it meant so much to us, and it feels like we didn’t get the wedding we dreamed of.

Right now, all I can think about is how much I wish we could do it again, but differently. Something small, intimate, just close friends and family who genuinely want to be there. No pressure, no big expectations, just a day that actually feels full of love.

Has anyone else felt like this after their wedding? Did you ever do a redo or something similar? I just feel really lost and gutted about the whole thing.