I don't see a future for myself.

I'm just 18 yo and I'm about to graduate high school. I can say that I have a thought out path that I'm gonna take in life and I have some goals I want to achieve. I pretty much have a normal life but I can't help but feel like I'm gonna die at any given moment. Not like I have some physical problems or that I am suicidal, but I've got this massive fear of how uncertain life is.

These days, every time I think about my future I ask myself: "Am I gonna be alive to experience that?". I feel like I have no control over my destiny and my self esteem is so low that I don't trust myself with preserving my life for too long.I thought that maybe I have some kind of paranoia but I'm not sure. I've always been an anxious person and maybe this plays a part but the only long term problem I can recall is my lack of confidence.

Could it be so bad that it manifests in this fear? My theory is that I feel like I have no control over my life because of the lack of confidence I have about myself and my abilities.

And a side note... I recently started driving which greatly worsened this problem.

Can anyone relate?