PMDD - costing me a divorce

Hi,

PMDD is about to cost me everything. I’ve been struggling with PMDD since postpartum 4 years ago, I didn’t know it at the time, I didn’t know what was wrong with me until last October, so I have known and been in treatment for less than 6 months. I always knew there was something wrong with me and for all that time I was looking for answers, different therapists, doctors, functional medicine and none helped. I didn’t treat my husband well during this time, I pushed him away, but when I had moments of clarity I told him that I knew there was something wrong with me to please stick with me until I figured it out.

Well I figured it out, it’s under control, I feel like my old self and now he’s leaving me. He wants a divorce and I’m absolutely devastated. I can’t make him stay but he’s just leaving and I don’t know how to do this. Anyone here gone through this? I’m so lost.