25 [F4A] fuck im so sad

YAWAAAAAA I HATE DRINKING CAUSE I JUST FEEL ALL MY EMOTIONS. WHO IN THEIR RIGHT MIND WOULD WOKE UP AT 3AM JUST TO DRINK ALONE AND MAGPAKALASING. I ALREADY FINISHED 7 BOTTLES OF MULE! AND IM A WRECK FUCK FUCK FUCK

PS. I DONT WANNA FUCK GUYS. IM JUST REALLY REALLY REALLY SAD. I WANNA BE NUMB AS HELL AND JUST FEEL NOTHING AT ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ALSO I DONT WANNA DIE, LIFE’S TO PRECIOUS. BUT I JUST WANNA SHUTDOWN FOR A WHILE!!!!!!