WLW age gap

Have you seen the movie Carol? That’s kind of my life right now.

I’m F 24, in a relationship with a 40 y.o woman. I’ve been crushing on older women since forever and this feels like a dream come true but… I don’t know how to handle it.

I’ve never been one to care about what other people think, even in public spaces but now I do, for her sake. I’m terrified that she’d get persecuted for being so ‘unconventional’ considering that she’s closer to the conservative generations.

she hasn’t told anyone about me. I feel like a guilty pleasure of her’s she can only deal with in private and idk if I’ll be okay with that forever.

I do love her though. She’s met some cousins and friends of mine, I’ve brought her to my house and have taken care of her.

Besides her always pointing out the age gap, wanting to be so secretive, the language barrier of being in diff generations and me being less conservative, our love’s actually like fire. It’s like we both know the passion’s burning so much because we constantly have to tend to keeping it alive.

How do we get through this?