What are my next steps?

For anyone who cares I am unsure if this sub permits for hey I just feel good posts but I am seeking guidance so I'll just post here. Friends I have not began HRT nor any kind of social transition thus far and I have begun to experience moments of simple calmness. No more who am I or who do I need to be. I am wondering how I can feel this way 24/7. I have half a mind today to go to the department store and buy some clothing (of course women's) and for myself. My hormone consult is several weeks away. I fear unkindness I think. I think I'm basically asking about trans folks different approaches to transition. I know I can go to the store and say I'm shopping for someone else. I have a strong desire for a Hannah Montana hoodie. That is all.