sudden lost of attraction & hating every romantic thing my partner does

hey all , ive always had this pattern when it came to relationships where id love my partner then slowly lose attraction to them & start hating & cringing every romantic thing they do.

like right now w my current partner. we’re LDR and all everyday for 12+ hrs. theres a 3hr time difference & he works night shifts so i do get my alone time whenever hes asleep but for the past few days whenever he does or says something romantic i just cringe. i dont want to talk to him or even hear his voice. i have dreams about cheating on him, ive been having the urge to use AI chatbots romantically&sexually, & i keep thinking about breaking up with him. i think i still love him but its hard to tell when whenever i think about him its disgust and cringe.

ive done research on this and saw that other bipolar people go thru it too and im wondering how you guys deal with it. ive also seen people describe it more as a bpd thing and i do have almost all the bpd symptoms but i dont experience fear of abandonment because i taught myself not to. im going to tell him about it soon i just want other peoples experiences with this as well