Dating men (derogatory) sucks

Sooo, I found out my boyfriend (ex, now) has a wife, 2 days ago. So that's a new fun thing. I thought he'd been divorced for a good while. We had been out places, like in public in the same city.

I stayed the night with this man.

In his wife's bed.

OH MY GOD

I'm just...flabbergasted. I am, I think, in shock. I have to go get tested for everything because it's possible there was a third woman and I'm too broke for the tests and how the hell do men do this and how did he hide it for almost a year?!

And what do I do now? 😭 I am almost in my 40s. I genuinely thought he was the one. In my head, he's been the one since I was 15. This fucking bites donkey balls.