I wish i wasnt selfish

i wish i wasnt all of the attention i wish i wasnt the way i am i wish i didnt say thing i never did just for attention i wish i always pretend to be nice to everyone so more people will be intirested in being freinds of me so could they just give me attention i hate mysself i hate how selfish i am i wish i could stop i wish i didntr have victim comples i wish i coulkd just stop pretenidng to be nice everytime when in reality i just need their attention not because i value them as a person i wish i coudl feeel acutally bad for those people who i use for attention but i cant i wish i didnt feel bad only for myuself