Interested in watch-only dynamics in group party

Hey everyone! 29M here, Decent Built and Asian complexion. 5’9, 178 lbs. After having orgy experiences, I have developed a fantasy of having these: “I always enjoy watching women make out, and I’d love to join a women’s party or a watch party. Maybe I’d be a cuckold or something like that. I wouldn’t touch any girl or have any physical contact, but I would still want to watch and control my urge to jerk and masturbate. That’s been my fantasy.”