i feel like i manifested my family member's deaths on accident

i had found a song i enjoyed and was listening to it repeatedly. one of the lyrics has a line about desiring a death in the family in order to break yourself out of a slump. i liked that lyric a lot, and kind of thought about it sincerely. not long after i started listening to that song, my aunt died. and not long after that, i lost my grandmother. i felt so nervous that i just stopped listening to that song entirely. i know it's irrational but when i hear it i just feel nervous now.