I initiated and it was amazing

I (25 LLF) have been really struggling since giving birth. my everything is sagging, and I have terrible self esteem. my husband (27, HLM) constantly tells me how beautiful I am, etc. he's as supportive as he possibly can be, but my mental health is so bad I just think that I'm disgusting. our baby is 15 months old so this has been happening for a while.

he recently mentioned to me it hurts that he constantly has to initiate sex and I never do at all, and makes him feel rejected. I brushed it off. our sex life plummeted due to these issues I'm having. I'm naturally LL compared to him, but it got a lot worse recently. i was so caught up in my head that I wasn't thinking about him. I only noticed a few days ago, he's completely stopped initiating.

I was in the mood last night, I normally wait for him to initiate, so I did. I immediately got a reaction from him, for some reason I have it in my head that he will reject me because I'm fat and gross. we had sex, and I noticed an immediate difference today with his mood. I feel more confident and attractive within myself that I didn't get immediately rejected, so I hope that this is progress for me to be more comfortable with myself and take his feelings into account as I didn't realise I was pushing him aside.