idk who to ask so i told myself to go to the people that may understand me an got in a similar problem

So i make music and usually when i listen to the music i like in my mind i get like 100 pictures per second each of them giving me some vibes and i could "connect" to the music and feel it,but for like almost 8 months i started to go numb, my imagination, my creative self. I felt like i lost me, i am trying to tell myself that it will be ok but nothing changes that much. From my own search for the last 7-8 months i would have anhedonia and or lost visual auditive sensory imagination, wich it can go off from personal life struggles(i had a lot) but i wanna seek answers and learn how to get better faster because in my mind i really have the idea of letting the artistical me behind and just stay mediocre,a thing that i don t want (srry if i made mistakes in my writing,i don t usually speak english).