I want to quit

hey,

I finished internal medicine residency almost a year ago. since then , i have been feeling lost and out of touch. i work in the ICU and i hate seeing my patients suffer and die. i know im smart but in medicine i feel i will never reach my full potential and will always be average at most. i don’t like the work environment pr the dynamics.

a dialysis patient died today after i tried everything. on my way home i remembered my child self ,full of life and potential and burst into tears.

i know i should quit but don’t know what to do next. but life cannot keep passing by me like this.