I still blame my parents and idk how to move on

From the age of 15, I wasn’t just a kid anymore. I was cooking, taking responsibility, helping run the house like it was my duty. While other people were thinking about their future, I was just trying to keep things together at home.

No one really cared about my career. Or my studies in a serious way. It was always just “study enough to be educated” — not to build something, not to become independent, just… enough to eventually get married.

I wasn’t encouraged to work. I wasn’t allowed to build anything for myself.

Now I’m 25, and I have no job, no financial independence, and no real experience. And the worst part? The same world that I was kept away from is now rejecting me because I have “nothing to offer.”

I did fight, in my own way. I’m doing my LLB right now. I tried to hold on to something for myself. But it feels like I’m already late… like I’m trying to start a race everyone else began years ago.

And the irony is — the plan they had for me isn’t even working. I’m 25 and they still can’t find me a guy. So now I’m just… here. Not married, not independent, not settled. Just stuck.

I feel angry sometimes. Other times I feel guilty for blaming them. But mostly, I just feel lost.

I don’t know where to go from here or how to build a life when I feel like I was never allowed to start one.