I think I really am transgender.

I've been hoping it really was one of those teenage phases n I'd eventually grow out of the desire to transition. and then I hoped that I was actually internalizing misogyny and didn't want to become a man, but to become looked at as equal.

I've been thinking, as now it's been years of me knowing I was trans, that I've worked through those issues and thought alot about why or what.....I need to accept I won't feel like a girl in the future and I need to trust myself. because I've been telling myself since I was 13 that I'll grow out of this, or change my mind soon, so there was no reason to ruin my relationship with my family to come out since it wasn't gonna stick.

but I've been saying that... waiting to feel like a girl, and it's just not happening. I think I should just trust myself... because it might never happen...

sorry I'm a little high right now so my words aren't very good.