My dream, goal, and purpose in life.

For a large portion of my life I have desired more then anything else to become a father. I dream of the day I can wake up and hold my partner close, placing a hand on her stomach while I feel the kicks of our combined love and effort, wanting to pick names with her as the days turn into weeks then months until the day arrives that I can hold my child in my arms, promising to them both that I will be the best father I can. There are plenty of other things I crave both wholesome and not but none of it matters until I build my life to the point I can make it all a reality. It’s been years since but as soon as I graduated from high school I went straight to work, working as many shifts as I can to save up for a home and to get a life stable enough to bring my future family safely into this world, I’m barely 23 now and not there yet but I’m closer then ever at least and it’s giving me a lot of time to plan things more and more and to learn and grow as an adult.

While working towards all of this ive also struggled with another important part of my dream, finding the right woman to eventually marry and have this family with. Part of it is mainly my lack of experience/not knowing how to find dates and I feel like me being as nerdy as I am doesn’t help to an extent but what I’m so far finding is that it’s hard to find a nice woman either as nerdy as me or accepting of my nerdy self who seriously desires a family. Am I not looking correctly? Is it something about me? Is my luck just horrid? Whatever the cause I will keep at it until I find the one, someone I can pour my love, life, and dreams into, someone I can be as much of a friend with as I am a partner, someone who will raise, teach, and play with our kid or kids with. And most importantly to make memories and to grow old with.

I can go on for ages about what I want both wholesome or not but I feel like this was a long enough read, if anyone will read it at all that is, but if you made it to here thank you for reading, I know I’m not the only one struggling with this and while most are here to talk about kinks or lewd fantasies partially me included it’s nice to speak from my heart and vent my desires and struggles. (update/repost, seems like people like to share their similar dreams and liked this post a lot :3)