Yeah you have plenty to say

Yet none of it to my face. Boring, low effort, creep, weirdo, arsehole blah blah blah usual shite. remember this, we wouldn't be talking at all if it wasn't for me making some sort of an effort, you certainly didn't make any at all recently, am I wrong? Remember who it was that initiated every single one of our conversations over the last few months minus one. Who was it that despite being spoken to like shit half the time still came around and who was it that tried to make the day lighter for you any time I was around? If you expected more from me then I'm sorry, I wanted to give you that and it's easily given to someone that feels "safe" enough to show a little something back every now and then but that will never happen will it? You'd rather stay hidden and static all the while blaming me for everything. Listen if I'm not what you want, that's fine and I'm good with it, seriously. I know way back I didn't make this easy for you so in a sense I understand where you are coming from, I just thought it could have been something we could have came back from at least on a friend level of nothing else but you seem to think I'm out to play games and hurt you and I'm on some fucking ego trip when I'm not, you actually don't even know me at all. I'm just struggling to get my true feelings over to someone who's giving nothing back and probably couldn't care less, I can't open up anymore than I have when that's all I get from you. I seriously don't know why I even bother anymore like this is not even worth it, What's the point.

If it's friends that's good with me, If it's potentially more then let's just fucking get over ourselves for a fucking minute, if it's nothing and we ignore each other then fuck it let's crack on and just get on with it

I'm past caring now, I've got over this stupid situation before already and should probably have never got myself into it again.