the love of my life returns and stays at my home for 4 days travelling across the country

ok so chat listen plz try to understand me i am really in a very emotionally vulnrable position righnt now , this is not regular i had seen a lot of shits but this again something that i spent my 4,5 years in these , ofc its about a girl , so i had a huge feeling for her, like she was the love of my life few years ago and she also knows it , i was in that stage of life where i would do anything and everything she she would tell literally anything . we were llike that before but she never loved my back and also it was long distance , she is from north side of india and am from very far like 1500+ km , we met in 2020 and became close , and in 2023 oct we finnaly ended our everything bcz i liked her too much she also got frustrated and blocked me from everwhere , i was devastated  it felt like my life shattered  but still i somehow got up and made me understood that oke this was a phase lets get over , it took me a lot of time to make myself again ok, not good or better or bestt but just fine, we then again started on our friendship but this time me without anything for her i thought i moved on but now she is infront of me in my room she travelled all the way from her home to my city to meet me (as a friend way ) and now its 3:20 at night she is infront of me sleeping on my and here i am sitting infront of her , she is someone i cant look with the eyes of lust i loved her a lot at that time now i dont have feeling but as i see her sleeeping front of me  , my heart feels heavy very heavy i dont know why am i feeling this , and now the twist i feel ashmed of saying these but but .... as a boy and girl of 20nyear old and also knows each other from last 6 years , we hardly have any adult convo as i felt she would not be comfortable w that and we had a lot of mutual respect for each other , and now as things are not like before (that much) we have plan to go many places and at night smoke week in our room and at last day we have plan for a beach and get drunkk, by any chance is there any chance of us having physical intercourse or kiss or anything after geeting drunk? if not how to insitiate it from my side . like she should not feel uncomfortable and she also agree , or somehow do something from my actions that she will give the first move from her to start ? its not like i will make her drunk he have plan to get drunk in room near the beach, i dont have any wish to do have sex w her but the circumstance we are in leads to only that , think a boy and a girl in 20s getting drunk and seat still ? so all that things lead to this , i dont wish but manifest