No matter what I do , i always end up lonely.

I'm (24M) from India. I rarely go out of my house and today I went out with my friends. We talked and laughed but I still felt uneasy and lonely. I'm unemployed and depressed and it's hard to make friends online too because , it doesn't last long if you don't know how to keep a conversation going. I feel lonely with friends in real life as well. I’ve never had a gf and at some point in my life I desperately wanted to feel what it's like to have someone who loves you for who you really are and fill the void at least a little bit but this is ridiculous and stupid because it shows a weak mindset, looking for someone to save you from loneliness. Hobbies and interests feel forced now. I feel tired and can't sleep. I wish I could sleep peacefully without thinking about anything.