48 hours until massage, 184 hours since I last ejaculated! Will I survive?

I have an erotic massage scheduled for this Saturday. Normally I refrain from masturbating around 4-5 days before having an erotic service performed because I enjoy the intensity of the orgasm when a load has been building up for a few days. It always results in a very large quantity of thick, creamy white, semen. Very satisfying!

Lately I've been trying to masturbate a lot less in general, going from every 2-3 days to every 6-7 days. Instead of just trying to achieve a quick nut to put my horny mind at ease, I'm learning to provide myself a more sensually gratifying way of making love to myself. I'm also trying to overcome a mild case of porn induced erectile dysfunction. Instead of 5-10 minutes of watching gay porn and cumming as soon as the rimming scene puts me over the edge at the sight of a butthole, I'm turning off the TV, closing my eyes, drifting away, softly caressing my penis, feeling my erection grow, flicking and pinching my nipples, teasing my anus and smelling the musk on my finger before tasting it, rolling my testicles around as the scrotum begins to relax and sag, basically a total sensory experience. I'm making it all last as long as possible with the reward of feeling intensely euphoric at the end. It's the same feeling I have when a masseur edges me for 90 minutes and then gives my penis his long-awaited release!

After a masturbation session I'm usually fine for a couple days. Around day 4 I start waking up with morning wood that won't go away. I'll fondle it a little bit because it's impossible to resist, but I won't let the lil guy squirt. On day 5 I'll start getting semis when I scrub my naughty bits in the shower. He's getting eager but not yet demanding. Around day 6 my testicles start feeling really heavy and my vas deferens a bit swollen. This is usually when I know I need to masturbate soon. Day 7 I start feeling an urgency in my loins.

The last load I emptied was saved up for 7 days and it was so god damn thick it was a little bit painful passing through my urethra. When I turned on the bedroom lights to clean up the mess I couldn't believe how massive it was. The consistency was like level 10 mega hold hair gel and there was enough of it that I probably could have styled my hair with it! I wiped it up with a rag and let it dry on my bedside table. It's all crusty now and I still haven't washed it. I keep smelling it every day as it ages like a fine wine. I plan to keep adding to it until it becomes too disgusting.

Day 6 or 7 has typically been when I MUST drain the fluids or else. Today is day 8!

When I last masturbated 8 days ago I didn't really take into consideration that it would be a total of 10 days until my massage. Now that I'm at the 8 day mark I'm beginning to worry that I might have my very first nocturnal emission and lose it all in my sleep. The first thing I did when I woke up this morning was reach into my underwear and drew tiny circles around my peehole to see if anything was abnormally wet. It was slightly moist, probably just precum from my throbbing morning wood.

Anyway, I hope to god I don't waste this load in my sleep between now and Saturday! I really want to share it with my masseur. I can't wait to find out what happens when he releases this monster load!!!