Struggling to move on/ make of this recent connection

TDLR; failed dating connection leaving me vulnerable and ghosted/ blocked. I need advice and external outlooks, trying to navigate these feelings and process while knowing what to expect moving forward.🌱

Hi everyone. I’ll try not to make this too long, but please have some grace lol. I 21(F) just had a turn of a connection happen on me with a 22(M). Everything was going really good, we went on a date in the first week of matching and talking basically every single day. I liked him so much and we had so many niche interests together, even interesting differences but nothing too powerful for me to say “not the one”. I was being treated so well, call me swooned if you must lol but I was still conscious. I may or may not have stayed the night over his place after our first date because I bought a drinking game on our date (I’m the one who asked). You can imagine we had relations that followed morning, and we continued talking even more after I left.

He was incorporating me into his space, going to the store with him and vice versa, building shelves, cooking for me, watching vines and even playing games together. His cat even warmed up to me. We were going to go on our next date after I already stayed a second weekend at his place, but I had to push it back due to a party weekend I had pre-planned. Well, everything changed within that pushback week.

We agreed to mutually date, but there was a part of me that went back and realized I never actually got what he personally wanted and how he wants to keep moving forward. So one day I asked him to explain, he said he would gladly after settling in at work. He disappeared for a few hours and came back saying he’s not sure what’s going on mentally, that he’s been really overwhelmed with everything and not sharing it with anyone. I told him he can talk to me, trying to create an open space while also saying he’s needs to be direct and take the chance to be vulnerable and also honestly answer my question. With that, he told me I was being dismissive and that how he feels about everything has nothing to do with how he feels towards me, telling me goodnight and that he’s explain everything tomorrow.

I felt really bad, because he said i triggered him and I had no intention of doing that. I just wanted an open, communicated conversation and directness. We talked the next day otp, to which he was pretty cold, dismissive himself, moody, rejecting of positive words, and talking about falling into the devil on his shoulder blocking everyone out and going back to the way things used to be. This triggered me because I’ve experienced being shut down on and left in the cold, but I handle it with communication and grace. I was over his place the next day, I apologize again and we hung out almost like everything was going smooth again.

I had bought him a Sung Jiwu plushie cause that’s his favorite series, we ate fast food on his couch and watched his favorite show the digital circus. He even gave me one of his shirts with his scent on it. But I could feel the energetic shift, i could feel the shift in affection, lack of real engagement or even eye contact but i still engaged. I even asked if we were still on for our date that weekend, to which he said if we didn’t piss each other off. He walked me to my car and didn’t want to kiss but we hugged, and after I made it home he said he’d talk to me more tomorrow.

I had sent a pretty acknowledging, vulnerable message to him that next morning, because I really liked him and cared about where we’re going. Let’s just say he didn’t message me back or respond to my messages until midnight, saying “sorry for the late response the day was very hectic”. I wanted to respond in so many different ways, but I chose to just say good morning and ask how his day was, even express that it feels weird watching him send me a snap instead of engaging in conversation with me. He took all day to reply again, saying “it’s nothing too deep, just been all over the place💜”.

I eventually asked him after analyzing that text for so long, if it’s safe to say he’s no longer interested, to which he replied with “I’m in attendance. If you want to we can still be on for this weekend, sorry I haven’t been talking I’ve been sleep mostly.” I had a hard hit with that, because he would’ve replied way differently if he was actually interested. So the next day I took his shirt back to his place and put it on his doorknob, going through the motions and still having questions, feeing vulnerable. I never got a response or even closure, and yesterday I find out I’m blocked on everything.

I feel so many things, but vulnerable and abandoned is definitely two of them lol. I’m still trying to make of this, process it, accept it, even move on because I invested a whole month of me and shared memories with someone I really liked, and who said they also liked me/ prayed for me. Idk, if you read this far, I just really wanted to share my experience and get some external insight, advice, some shared help instead of being stuck in these emotions. Thank you :(❤️‍🩹