Cheated on my boyfriend 😔. I am 27 years old(Nepali girl) we are in long distance relationship for a long time now. I am cheating on him with a guy i met .Now i am in a difficult situation of What should be the right decision for my grave mistake 😔

I am never gonna make any excuse for the mistake i have done. I know what i did was wrong and also not gonna give explanation on why i cheated on my boyfriend. I guess through this confession i want to bust out the things i am storing inside my mind and trying to minimize the mental pressure i am having for last some period of time. Also i am having mix feelings of what should i do next .

I love my boyfriend so much , i have never imagined my life without him and i cant live without him . Just like other long distance relationship we also used to fight a lot and in that heated period i made a mistake by starting talking with that guy. He was always there when i felt lonely and sad . We talked for 2 months which lead to a kind of attachment as well and slowly we started getting physical . He knows about my bf and we are still talking but planning to end talking and meeting soon within 1 week .

Now i have having mainly this 2 confusion of what should i do:

1. Should i tell my bf that i have cheated on him? I have never kept any secret from him. And i feel like I am deceiving him and the breaking the value of love not just my cheating but also keeping the secret that i cheated on him for whole life . What should i do?

2. Due of ling distance we rarely talk mostly in past 3/4 months we are having very less conversation and more fights.Along with all this i cheated on him and now i am having mental pressure in hardness in my daily life (living alone) not being able to focus on career, study, family or socialization….along with a feeling of i should be punished for what i did . Getting stock in the depth of guilt . Please give me suggestions how to get rid of this guilt and start focusing on life 😞