Healthy impulsivity/rebelliousness?

Hello friends. I have identified that a lot of my drinking comes from a desire to spontaneously "treat myself" (as if) and be a bit rebellious. I guess I just get bored with too much stability and goodness because I came from so much chaos, and it feels weird for things to not be chaotic. I hate that I feel this way. I have a literal dream life now that I've worked so hard to build, and I just want to bask in it and fully enjoy it and let that be enough for me instead of wanting to inexplicably shake things up sometimes. I do not want to turn to a random drinking binge in order to feel rebellious or impulsive. I have done well cutting out the daily drinking, I have handled special occasions without drinking now, I'm medicated and doing better, but still, when I get PMS, I always end up going out and drinking. Does anyone have any ideas of a healthier way I could go out and feel a little rebellious and wild without going for a drink?