Are You Also Hesitating Because of The Possible Outcome?

27F and I've always been suicidal but I can never commit it to fully because I'm still afraid of the afterlife if there is one. Like cant I just cease to exist right after dying?

Life has been so hard lately I've reached my breaking point.

I already lost any dreams or aspirations since I was a teenager. There's really nothing I'm looking forward to do, and I haven't really had suicidal thoughts in a while because I was facing huge debts and don't want my mom to deal with that shit.

Now I've mostly paid for everything and am just ready to go, I think my sisters can handle the rest.