why is wlw dating so🫩

hey guys this has been on my mind for awhile and i feel like im losing it so i need someone’s brutal honest opinions or anything please LMFAO

me and this girl became friends and she is the very first lesbian person i’ve ever met (YAY common ground!!!) but anyways, we started texting more feb-march and i genuinely had no intentions of being anything more than friends nor have i ever thought of her as anything other than that

we’ve never gotten to hangout before since our schedules never align, but last week we finally were able to plan our very first hangout ever for Sunday! and i kid you not she asked me “is this a date? i would like it to be! but i would like clarification” and honestly i was taken aback by this because we’re just good friends and i lowkey was freaking out and confused like “wait she had those intentions?” LOL but i said yes like frick it why not?

the date was like cute awkward but we had a lot of fun, we even held hands and she would interlock her fingers with mine. the nervousness went away and i enjoyed my time with her. in the car ride home she suddenly brought up the topic of how she doesn’t want to move too fast since it’s also her first time as well, i understood that and we ended up having a deep convo of what we wanted in a relationship like communication and etc and we were on the same page for everything!

after i dropped her off i remember thinking to myself “this was so much fun, im so excited to go on more with her” the the next day she proceeded to text me that she had so much fun on the date and that it went really well but we aren’t going to work out romantically and we should remain friends🫩🫩

what does this even mean. it kinda hurts because i had my guards up for so long after being hurt so many times, the one time i decided to lower it a little for her she says this. i’m just so confused because how is she gonna ask to go on a date, hold hands with me then switch up and say this?💔yikes.

i don’t know what to do or how i should feel, everything feels so ugh now, please guys what’re your thoughts or anything