Hi.

1st year high school po ako and battling with depression since November. I've talked to my advisers and guidance counselor pero nothing talaga eh. I feel very unimportant and unloved dito sa bahay, lalo na sa school since I've no friends din dun. I've tried drowning myself last week Saturday pero I remembered I was afraid of water and drowning. I've tried drinking different sorts of medicine to end it all pero 3 palang naiinom ko, napatigil na ako kasi biglang magreply yung guidance coor namin sa chat ko (15 minutes to 5 hours kasi bago siya magreply sa single chat, mostly vague pero helping naman since naka-usap ko na siya twice in person and mga 2 hours kada beses.) I wrapped the remaining medicine sa isang papel along with a blade I had used siguro thrice and surrendered it to one of my advisers since that Monday, half day yung guidance coor namin. I really need help. I'm so scared but at the same time Im growing more and more suicidal each day.