GORE TRAUMA

First things first, I'm not that guy who get sick after watching a few goes, the first time i ever watch gore I thought "hey, this isn't pretty disturbing after all." after watching 5 gore video, I saw a man getting beheaded, and that's where I feel something weird inside me feels like I'm sick, and I ignored it thinking this is just normal for new people who watched gore,

after watching gore for a bit long, I stop to eat, that's where it hits me, my mind is saying that I'm eating human flesh even though I'm not so I stop eating for a while and try to sleep thinking "maybe if I sleep this will go away." all of the sudden the gore video keep flashing before my mind, and now I can't stop thinking about what can happen to me if I ever go outside, I regret checking up a gore website, everything I saw looks so painful I can even feel it in my imagenation, it's so terrifying I think I close to developing trauma because of what I saw,

I tried doing many ways to distract myself from thinking it, i keep my self busy but it couldn't help, and now my fear starts growing fast and I start fearing stranger, my friends, and neighbors because of the feeling they might do something to me,

Please someone give me an advice on how I can remove this fear, so I can live a normal life again.

(please do not do want I did, specially for those who have weak stomach, and other things.)