Spiralling at work

Hello, unmedicated and undiagnosed AuDHDer here (hopefully not for long, first assessment is in three weeks!).

I am really struggling to not go insane in my current job. It actually brings me to tears how miserable I am most days. On paper, it’s a cushy, fully remote corporate job. But it’s repetitive, involves daily meetings with my micromanager, and now involves training AI. My manager is a terrible communicator and does not fully explain the reasoning or purpose behind certain tasks. I often struggle to complete these tasks especially as they are so menial. I constantly feel like a failure.

Before anyone suggests talking this out with my boss, there is absolutely no point. She is a workaholic with no empathy and expects everyone to work/live like her.

I cannot cope with this level of stress everyday and fear that I am on my way to burnout. I have been looking for a new job for several months but have not had any offers. I don’t want to quit without a new job but every new work day makes me want to hand in my notice to save my sanity.

If you’ve been in this situation, what has helped you?