Don't Feel Good

So... yesterday I had... a day.

I completely forgot it was Good Friday, until I was at work.

I have to get my medication weekly because I'm deemed a risk to myself.

So after work I went to the clinic to find it closed... okay... so now what?

I called 111 and explained my situation to them. I explained what medication I'm on and that I'm running out.

They said that they'll send the prescription to another pharmacy so I can go collect it.

I head to the pharmacy which was in a large shop.

I go over and explain the situation and that I'm waiting on a prescription.

They tell me to wait, so I do.

Then they tell me there is no record of me taking the medication, no proof of me taking it.

I explained that I called 111. They call 111 and get someone else on the phone, who proceeded to tell me that there was no record of my call and they don't deal with medication...

That's when it happened... in a busy shop... I had a meltdown, dropped the phone and started to scream and cry...

It got so bad the pharmacy called 111 and a nurse was on the phone to me, then the out of hours doctor called me and said they can't prescribe my meds.

I just wanted to leave and go home, but the pharmacy wouldn't let me leave... because they called an ambulance on me!

So I had to wait there, my phone was dying, my earphones were dead. I just wanted out.

The pharmacy did say they will charge my phone and the paramedics arrived...

They took me into a room and did some checks and apparently during this the out of hours doctor called back and said they could and will prescribe my meds... but I had to go to ANOTHER pharmacy.

So... I did.

I left home at 6:30 am. I didn't get back home until 6:40 pm.

And today... I feel awful. I hate myself and it feels like nobody cares...

My partner is with his family and my best friend hasn't messaged me at all.

I haven't got a message from either of them... I feel so alone