Is this common for bipolar?

Hi there.

I’m married. few months ago I cheated for the first time after years of marriage. it was not physical it was through apps.

I then told my wife that I feel I deserve better and she’s not enough for me.

Few weeks after, I went to counseling and the counselor told me I might be bipolar. I’ve been on med for 3-4weeks now.

fast forward to few days ago. I told my wife that I feel like I‘m caged by the marriage and I should face this alone since the thought of “she’s not enough for me” keeps coming into my mind and it’s not fair for her.

She‘s really supportive and I really appreciate her but that thought is just tearing me apart.

My hear now is filled with I want her to stay and I’m caged. And I feel like the only way out is to leave her and just don’t get into any serious relationship.

is this a common pattern for ppl with bipolar?