Idk, childhood ig

So, if I'm not optimistic, I’m closed minded. If I have an opinion, I’m judging. Yet when you judge and when you set everyone else’s mood based off yours, it’s okay. You had a rough day, you had to work. School can’t compare. You say your friend’s daughter and I actually have a lot in common, you compare our situations even though we are not the same. She has a different mindset, different outlooks. I should be thankful to have the love that I have just because you didn’t. I sympathize your childhood, It seems unbearable. But making others feel guilty, sorry for you, you crave the attention. You party and drink. You hang out with people who are below you, age and mentality wise. You mention your “work family” and compare us to them. Someone who acts like a teenager should not be raising a teenager. Someone who acts like I need to be the parent yet says otherwise, is confusing. You say I don’t have that “survival mindset” the one you have and hold onto oh so dearly, yet you don’t seem to care when I tell you I’m drowning, when I tell you I want to survive. You don’t remember the nights I confess how I really feel, you get too drunk, and the next morning, all of those thoughts and worries disappear. But we can’t talk about, I can’t bring up that night you forgot I was there, you forgot my dinner, I can’t bring up those nights where you would swerve. Yet, you can bring up every traumatic experience and we should listen and care. Your exact words to “talk to a therapist not me” about your problems had a weight. When I tried to get said therapist, we were busy, broke, or you forgot. You seem to forget a lot. You comment on my way of doing things, expecting thankfulness yet it makes me hate the task. You get mad at me for texting or talking to friends on my device yet anytime I talk to you, you always end up in your phone. So yes, what you do is right, yet if I make that same move, I’m wrong. You overlook me to care for my brother, you tell me how great my childhood is and you will never listen to me if I were to say otherwise.