I regret putting online as my first choice

So basically, I got into NCSSM online, but I put online as my first choice in Durham as my second but now I really regret doing that and I wish I put Durham first because I might’ve had a chance at Durham. The thing is that I really thought I wouldn’t make it into anything so I was just really underestimating myself there but now I really wish I did put online as second choice because even if I didn’t get into Durham, I would’ve at least known that I wasn’t good enough for that yet.

Now I don’t know if I was good enough for Durham and I would’ve gotten in or what. I’m happy that I got it to online, but I’m still hung up over that cuz a bunch of people I know got into Durham that I didn’t think would get in to the residential program so idek atp