In Need of Community -Please help me guys

I was doing so well with my taper journey. I found the “sweet spot” at 4-5% cut right after my cycle. My “time of the month” (sorry if me mentioning that makes anyone uncomfortable) was the roughest part for me. It made all my taper symptoms x100.

With the taper schedule I found, it significantly reduced my taper symptoms. I was living life again. I felt like “me” again. Sleeping well, eating well, going out and doing things, hanging out with friends, being the type of wife and mother I know I can be… but I feel like I messed up.

I tapered on March 12th at 5% (my typical taper schedule) and since I’ve been feeling so good… I tapered another 5% on March 24th - a week before my cycle starts. I truly don’t know what I was thinking. I was on a high, feeling good, wanting to hurry up the process because I’ve been tapering for 6 months… I don’t know.

Anyways, since April 1st I’ve been really struggling. I started my cycle on April 2nd and I’m just so mad at myself. I’m scared I permanently damaged myself or something. In December I learned a terrible lesson of tapering too much at once (17%) and it was horrific.

This feels a little like that but not nearly as intense but I’m scared that I’ll be stuck in this place for months. I don’t know. It just seems like I’ll be stuck in this prison of tapering forever. I’m doubting myself. I’m doubting that it’s the taper and maybe I just have other issues. I’m doubting that I’ll ever get back to the place I was before pushing to 10%. I feel like I blew it.

I just really need encouragement and community right now. People who I can talk to who have been there. Would love to hear from ANYONE but also see if they’re women who know what I’m talking about in terms of cycles and are on the other side.

Anything right now. I just need community.