6 weeks and at a loss on what to do

Trigger Warning: Abortion

My husband (27m) and I (25f) just found out we are pregnant after 3 years of marriage and 9 years together. I’ve struggled with infertility but apparently I wasn’t as infertile as we all thought. I’ve always known my husband was on the fence about having kids and had always said if he had them he would want to be financially stable first (which we are not… never have been, now probably never will be) We had even just recently discussed being child free and him getting a vasectomy. He told me last night that he does not want to keep it but respects my decision if I want to. He said he is certain that the child will bring us nothing but hardship. He knows I’ve always loved children and have had the desire to be a mom. I’ve also got very supportive family, my parents are even exploring the option of building us a home on their property. I think deep down I fear that he will come to resent me later on if I do decide to keep it. I do agree that the timing isn’t right, we don’t have a home, and have debt up to our ears. I also just got my dream job at a cannabis dispensary and really don’t know how well it’s going to work out considering I’m already going crazy at 3 days not smoking. I’m just in absolute shambles and could use some love, advice, and even stories that are similar to mine. These hormones are kicking my ass and I can barely keep it together at work.